So guys...I have reverted to a whole new low in my 24 years of existence.  You see I feel like a new born baby this week.  I have been tired, attention starved, unable to move from one place, finky about when and what I eat, and haven't slept through a night until last night. 

Oh man,  that was the best feeling in the world!  I went to bed around 10.45 P and woke up only once at 7.30 a.   Can you imagine?  I got something like 10 hours of sleep last night (with the clock changing and all) and never once and I mean once woke up.  This is a miracle.  I have come to the conclusion that when your life is changed so drastically, you measure your life on a different standard.  For instance, Saturday held the first day that I could drink anything colder then room temperature.  On top of that I was able to sip at a normal pace on room temperature items.  Sure this wouldn't mean much to me normally but when you haven't been able to for the better part of a week you enjoy it all the same. 

Today, I am going to leave the house and go to church.  I have not been outside my apartment since Thursday and that was just to walk from my truck into the apartment.  So, I am going to church late and leaving early.  I don't want to make anyone else sick  but I have a real desire to worship within the context of a bunch of believers.  So friends, don't tell my mom she would be pissed at me but I have to do something.  I am 24 yrs old and I want to experience life to the fullest...SO I AM GOING TO CHURCH!!!  I don't know many 20 somethings that want to go to church to live life to the fullest but I do.  Even the PCA church service will be a party after the week I have had.  I figured it may be to much to go to a pentelcostal church this sunday so I will stay the frozen choosen as to not get my heart rate up to much. 

Well, I think that I will stop carring on!  Thanks for those of you that have or are praying for me.  This has been a challenging and revealing week.  When you have all this time it becomes pretty evident that you can't ignore His knocking on your heart forever.  Scary thing it is when He comes knocking down there!  Please continue to pray for me as I start school on Monday....I think it is going to be exhausting to say the least.  I have a ton to accomplish by the end of the semester and this just happen to be a very poor time for illnesss.  So be it, even the Lord's hand is in this.  Thanks

Jeff

So...it is 6.38 am on a Saturday morning and this is what I find myself doing to keep myself occupied until the next bout with sleep.  For those of you that don't know, I have contracted mononeucleosis.  You know the kissing disease that your best friend got in high school or siblings got and you laughed at them for.  I know, Trip got it so bad that the story he tells sounds a bit like this...I went to make myself a sandwich and before I could eat it, I had to take a nap.

This sounds pretty lame something that makes you want to sleep all day.  Well, that is one of the S/S along with swollen and inflammed tonsils and throat, sinus pressure, and insatiable thirst but oh yeah you have all that inflamation in your throat.  The other bad thing about mono, yeah, defintely a virus.  Your body just has to get comfortable with and fight it out on its own.  GO TEAM BODY!  Mono can last from as long as 2 to 8 weeks normally but some cases have stretched out as long as 6 months.  Granted, most people do not take care of themselves like they should.  I have been trying with all my might to follow all my doctors orders. 

You know...as an aside...it is much easier to follow the orders of a doctor whom you know is invested in you.  Isabella, whom happens to be RCNP, has called my house three times to check up and let me know certain things that she would encourage me to do.  These things were far beyond her call of duty and are things I am sure are not worked into the bill. 

However, my doctors orders are to sit on my rear end for as long as possible without being active and push the liquids.  Oh yes, for all of you that know the least little bit, sitting around like this got old on Wednesday.  It is now Saturday morning and I have been outside twice.  Both times were just long enough to run from either my car to my apartment or vice versa. 

Well, I will continue to write on this subject because I have sometime.  However, now I am going to relax and continue to listen to the musical stylings of Yo Yo Ma. 

Hello Xanga fans...

Well for all of you that haven't noticed it is almost October.  Can I ask what might be suggested as a dumb question..."What happened to September?"

It seems in all my business I have forgotten a whole freaking month in the process.  SOMEHOW I have let a whole month go by!  Yet, I remember lots of things occuring in that time!  It is not like I slept through the entire month it is more like I had so much going on it flew by.  So, a September recap for your sake but really for my own. 

1.)  School started...oh, I didn't have any classes the first week of class and so I had to dig up lots of crap and get it done.

2.)  Car accident...Yes, it is complete and final Wanda is but a memory.  A good memory that met my needs for a time.  However, now I am riding around in a truck that I still can't really believe is mine.  I guess that will become more of a reality when I am paying for that new truck.

3.)  One complete month with Lynn!  A bit strange because I haven't had a relationship in some time.  Nothing ever quite like this!  Not every day of this relationship has been easy or totally enjoyable.  Yet, I can see the hand of God in it.  It is not always the easiest thing to get done but I enjoy the process.  The Lord is growing me even if it is slowly.

4.)  RUF is in full swing and I am excited to see the new faces.  I hope that God continues to bring in new people to this ministry.  I hope and pray that many of them are freshmen.  I pray that their hearts will be shaped like mine has by Stephen Badorf.  I pray that God uses him in such a huge way here at Towson for this year and years to come.

5.)  In a bittersweet move, I have transferred from one Starbucks to another.  Strangely, I will miss the people and all the drama that went on as a result.  However, I will be driving far less from Towson to Arundel Village this I real do like a lot. 

6.)  Lastly, youth group which I wish I could be more involved with is back in stride.  Oh man, what a year of change for Patrick and Lynn.  New kids, new ideas, and new challenges.  This is so great but it is very challenging and demanding of their time and energy.  On top of that, Pat and Becca have this house thing going on. 

Well, that is a quick look at September.  I bet you have some equally and better stories and reflections for me.  I find myself encourage though because our God is in control of all of it.  In many if not all those things, I can see how God is working and doing His divine thing.  What an amazing God we serve?  IF you see fit, pray for me so that I may continue to grow in grace and understanding of the times to come.  I am out of here!

Oh, Ashley you are a complete dork and I would not be surprised if Derek Webb retires from music.  It is scary fans like you that make stars go crazy!  Talk to you later

Jeff

Hello fellow xangaers...I guess

I thought I would update you with my life post wanda (the name of my old Blazer)  I have put her to rest so to speak and sadly had to move on.  From now on, this period in my dating system will now be known as 2004 PW or post wanda.  Ok, maybe that is a bit heretical so I won't do that.  But I have moved on and though I don't have my new car, I have a new car.

I now am the proud owner of a 2001 Dodge Ram 1500.  Ok, so for most of you that won't mean a darn thing but you can at least be happy for me.  I can't say much more then that until you get a glimpse of me riding down the road in it. 

Otherwise, school is busy.  Lynn is great! My life is blessed and though challenging and much harder because of sin...I am lead by the hand of the almighty God.  Many blessings

Jeff

So it has been a little while...but...lots has happened!  Let me tell you the expression "when it rains it pours" seems apatly appriorate at the time.  In the last two weeks, I have found out that I suck at taking care of my money.  As a result, I found out that I owed the University money, which I was not totally aware of.  On top of that, because I owed them money, they dropped every class I had and I found this out the Friday before school started.  So, I spent the better part of a week trying to get things straight with Professors so that I can finally graduate in May...this is long overdue.  However, I thought this is good the Lord is teaching me something and I want to do something about it.  THEN...

Last night, I was travelling home from the Webb's home.  I was house (animal) sitting their this weekend.  I was driving with Lynn in the car mind you, and had just gotten onto 97 going North bound.  The traffic was like rush hour on Friday night on 695 or for the UMD students anytime on 495.  I looked down for one second and not to do anything with Lynn...I promise.  I was looking for something and I look up and well yes I rear ended Mr. Fick's '99 Cadilliac.  This is very unfortunate!!!  You see I barely have the money for anything much less fixing or getting a new car.  So, I have been thinking!  What Lord do you want for me to learn!  I can't say that I am completely sure but I am being humbled by our God.  I am learning to be more dependent on Him!  I am trusting Him to provide like He does for the sparrows.  Because this young man is growing tired and I don't have the energy to cover my butt anymore.  I can only keep up with my lies and life for so long.  I have been caught trying to live a life I don't have.  SO, I am making a decleration for any and all who read my sight!  As most of you are my brothers and sisters in Christ I beg you to pray for me and ask you to hold me accountalbe.  Even if that means you truly ask how I am doing!  Even if that means you have to remind me of where I need to be before God.  That indeed would mean the world to me!  Thanks guys

However, not to be to mushy gushy but I have the best girlfriend ever.  Lynn Bullinger is so many of the things that I have always wanted and yet in all of that she is so much more.  I am as comfortable with her as any person.  I am as real with her as any other person.  I feel like I can be my whole self with her.  This is true because she is not perfect but her desires are to grow and know our God through His spirit.  Our relationship though passionate and amazing is totally God centered.  She sent me an email this morning just reminding through scripture of how good our God is to be faithful to His children.  I talk to her about everything and I am totally head over heels for this girl.  Well, I am going to go but I do ask you guys to take my petitions run with them and hold me accountable to my sin so that I might grow in grace. 

Thank you all

Jeff